Passion

I am writing today a little on the frustrated side. As you can probably figure out if you don't know me I am a divorced father of two wonderful children. The problem lies with their mother who is the most flighty person that I have ever met, maybe borderline lazy? When we were married and I got out of the Army she decided that she would go to beauty school. That was her first passion, which she actually did for about two years or so. After our divorce I think that she started working as a CNA. I say think because she has had so many jobs and passions since our divorce I have begun to lose track of them. So after she did that for a while she started taking classes for per-nursing, I thought great, she can take two years and do that and start making some decent money. She even got into school, then her passion changed. She decided that she wanted to be an accoutant, well that lasted about one semester, maybe two? So her passion journey continues on to education, she wanted to be a teacher I guess, well its two months into this semester and she is talking about dropping her classes because she was offerred a job selling insurance which is her latest passion. I just want it to stop!

The reason for this is because while she follows her passion journey through life which is about to dip into her 30's she is draining me financially. I get my kids at least 50 percent of the time, probably more and I have to her more then $430 dollars of child support every month. At first right after our divorce I didn't mind, maybe out of guilt for divorcing her, I don't know. But its been almost three years now and my guilt is being replaced by frustration and anger. Mostly because she refuses to get a full time job so I don't have to pay her money anymore. I was a little understanding at first, some people take some time to find their niche in life, but for fucks sake already. I hope this doesn't make me sound like a bad father because I am all about child support if one parent doesn't see the children at all, but I am being punished because I have a good job and make more money then she does! The system is for shit and it needs fixed! But at the same time she needs to get off of her lazy ass, stop being so selfish and get a fucking job! Not just get a job, but it needs to be full time and she needs to keep it!!!!!!!!!!!

Til I need you again blog,

B

The ying to my yang

Well, its another day at the office and things are going pretty good so far! I am a little tired as I get up at 0430 in the morning to be at work by 0530. I know, it could be much worse and it has! Not the hours per say but the fact that I used to work 110 miles away from home and would be gone for anywhere from 2-6 days at a pop. I started that job with hopes of going to grad school and that was my main focus. When it became apparent that I was not going to get into grad school things began to suck. A few months before that I had taken another job and met this truly amazing woman, her name was Randi. We were friends at first as the situation was, well, we will just say complicated. That didn't stop us from talking though and a couple of months later we were dating. It was hard at first because of my work schedule and some factors that complicated things with the "other" job. We moved in together in late May. It was finally the love that I have been searching for my whole life, I had finally met my soulmate(again)! I say again because it turned out that I used to go to school with and play baseball with her older brother. Her mother actually found an old picture of one of her brother's birthday parties and I was there, standing right next to me was Randi who at the time was probably 5. A wierd coincidence, perhaps. I think that it was something more! I think that it was then we were first introduced to our soulmates! We sometimes talk about how often our paths have probably crossed in our lives as we were at alot of the same sporting events during highschool. I love this woman with my whole heart and will do anything for her! She is PERFECT!!!!! Even though she will deny that til she is blue in the face. Continuing on with the story, we got engaged in July and are planning a October 2nd wedding! It is going to be absolutely perfect and I can't wait for that day and having the honor and privelage of Randi being my wife!!!!!!! Well I best be getting back to work, the office is calling my name!

Late!!!!!!!!!!

D.A.D.

Well back to work this Monday morning and I am exhausted!!!!!!! I had drill yesterday and got done with that around 1730. I left Omaha and it should have taken me about 3 1/2 hours to make the trip home to see my wonderful fiance who I shall call Randi. So anyways I got a call from her to see where I was at and BANG!!!!! I blew a fricking tire. Of course it was dark and of course I didnt have a flashlight. So 30 minutes later I am continuing my voyage of 120 miles left at 40 mph. I didnt get home until 2300 and had to be up at 0430. I woke up at 0505, which is five minutes after I need to leave for work.

Now to D.A.D. Saturday night I took my only daughter to her very first dance! It was the father daughter dance that is in its third year. It was a truly wonderful experience for all of us! I double-dated and a half I guess because I went with my soon to be father-in-law and my two soon to be step-daughters. We all had such an amazing time and I must cherish these days when I can do stuff like this with my daughter and not have her completely embarrassed by me and my dancing. I gotta tell you if she would see me dancing like that when she is in junior high or high school she would be completely mortified! She would probably end up calling 911 because she wouldnt be able to tell if I was dancing or having a seizure!!!!!! So part way through the dance the girls had a limbo competition and the dads went down stairs to the "man cave" to have a little talk. A local pastor came down and talked to us. He said he wanted to make it short but give us an important message. He came up with the acronym D.A.D. The first "D" he says stands for discipline. It is never to late to start to discipline your daughters(or sons) for that matter. Teach them the importance of discipline and not to forget to praise them. The "A" stands for addoration. Adore them he tells us and teach them to adore something in life that is not materialistic. The last "D" stands for dating. Take them out for dates as often as you can even if it is something as simple as ice cream or coffee. Be a gentleman to them and teach them how they deserve to be treated so when they begin their search for a life partner they know what they should be looking for. It was a part of the evening that I was not expecting and it really touched my heart! I love my girls, I have three of them now! Randi, I love your girls as they were my own and I will do my best to instill these values in them as much as I will my own daughter! I LOVE YOU!!!!! Well I am gonna close this entry for now as I best get back to work before my coworkers get pissed at me!

Until the next time,

B

Round One

Well here we go, I am new to blogging and a very important person in my life, my fiance has one of these and she thought that it might help me be able to vent some frustrations in my life. At first I was a little bit of a skeptic about this because the whole world can read it, but like she said it's completely annonymous and nobody knows its me, except who I tell. So here I am! A little bit about me, I am a father of two wonderful children and come October will have 3 wonderful step-children. I have the most amazing fiance in the entire world. My past experiences with woman led me to believe that someone like her didn't exist. She is different though, she accepts me for who I am, the good and the bad! A truly amazing woman!!!! I don't really have to much to talk about right now, just getting this started. So to all who read this take care and have a good day!

B