Passion

I am writing today a little on the frustrated side. As you can probably figure out if you don't know me I am a divorced father of two wonderful children. The problem lies with their mother who is the most flighty person that I have ever met, maybe borderline lazy? When we were married and I got out of the Army she decided that she would go to beauty school. That was her first passion, which she actually did for about two years or so. After our divorce I think that she started working as a CNA. I say think because she has had so many jobs and passions since our divorce I have begun to lose track of them. So after she did that for a while she started taking classes for per-nursing, I thought great, she can take two years and do that and start making some decent money. She even got into school, then her passion changed. She decided that she wanted to be an accoutant, well that lasted about one semester, maybe two? So her passion journey continues on to education, she wanted to be a teacher I guess, well its two months into this semester and she is talking about dropping her classes because she was offerred a job selling insurance which is her latest passion. I just want it to stop!

The reason for this is because while she follows her passion journey through life which is about to dip into her 30's she is draining me financially. I get my kids at least 50 percent of the time, probably more and I have to her more then $430 dollars of child support every month. At first right after our divorce I didn't mind, maybe out of guilt for divorcing her, I don't know. But its been almost three years now and my guilt is being replaced by frustration and anger. Mostly because she refuses to get a full time job so I don't have to pay her money anymore. I was a little understanding at first, some people take some time to find their niche in life, but for fucks sake already. I hope this doesn't make me sound like a bad father because I am all about child support if one parent doesn't see the children at all, but I am being punished because I have a good job and make more money then she does! The system is for shit and it needs fixed! But at the same time she needs to get off of her lazy ass, stop being so selfish and get a fucking job! Not just get a job, but it needs to be full time and she needs to keep it!!!!!!!!!!!

Til I need you again blog,

B